All-consuming thoughts can take over your life!

Last week, I learned something about myself. I struggle to give God the little stuff in my life. These past few months, I’ve had a lot of knee pain. Particularly in my left knee. I had a scope last year, which helped for a little while. But after starting back into my normal activities the pain came back.  Karate, which I love, has become very painful and almost impossible to do. Sometimes, just walking can be a problem. So I finally broke down and went to see my knee surgeon again. Well after doing everything they told me to do; medicine, rest, exercises to strengthen my quads… blah, blah, blah……

I’m going to let you in on a little secret, I’m kind of angry with God right now.  We’ve been dealing with some difficult issues, and I just can’t help feeling resentful at how unfair it is!   Have you ever felt like that before? When your prayers aren’t answered the way you wanted. Or when bad things happen to someone you care about. It can be hard to NOT be mad at God during these times. I didn’t realize at first what was going on, but first I noticed my mood dropping into the gutter.  I was snippy and emotional. Plus I was ugly to everyone around me. I…

Okay, guys, I have a confession to make:  I’m a selfish person. It’s not something I’m proud of, and I am not writing this post to get sympathy.  God laid my selfishness on my heart a few weeks ago, and I’ve been thinking about it ever since.   Some of you that know me, might be thinking I’m not that bad.  Especially compared to some. Others are probably thinking,  “It’s about time you figured it out!”  If we’ve never met in person, you probably have no idea what I’m talking about.  Don’t worry, you will soon haha… Looking Good on the Outside On the outside, I may look pretty good.  I…